Why I’m no longer striving to be an independent woman

Something lit up inside of me the other day as I was journaling. I had one of those ah-ha moments. I was thinking about the concept of being an "independent womxn." Something I've been striving for my whole life. To be able to take care of myself. But something about it just doesn't feel right. I think it's because I feel the need to prove I am independent. It's something societally programmed onto me to think I need to achieve.